They call me Nono

spring mirage

it’s january - midvintertime

sunny but cold

all the sudden i see dust

whirling from the road

winterdust

of sand and dirt, but dry

all though it is cold

this reminds my heart

of spring

it dreamt me

.

i dip my hand in the river
it runs thru my fingers
adapting
accepting my bodily presence
exchanging temperature
cell-memoirs
this is more than air
less than land
it is all
and
it dreamt me
at times wondering
questioning why
would such a dream
become true?

.

i want

.

i want

erase the bodies

pretty bodies

ugly bodies

fat

skinny

pumped and pimped

i want them gone

release the essence

of me

of you

us all

would we love

one another

more?

see who we really are

.

from the ashes of my self

.

you broke my heart

bitch

you - that cute face of yours

and at the same time

you puzzled me

anew

blew a new spark in me

but now

I don’t know how to walk

flower power

.

no

it’s not snowing

white petals

of apple blossoms

tumbling through the air

intoxicating me

the scent

is their last sentence

of love

.

gaah

.

the stupidity

agony i cause upon myself

important password

disappeared

my webmail!

and the double loop

my personal wall of stone

resetting password mail

goes into

that ominous inbox

(pls don’t laugh, it hurt my feelings)

.

spring song

.

It’s awake

Longing

forsaken wind
blown in that glow
risen the fire
certainty
know this

he’s coming
he’s coming
he’s coming

I am here

my waiting ended
finished
so hurry my love
hurry please!

come and wake me

forgive me then if I cry
your touch
ridiculed me all this time
my being shouted
out for you

flame not at all expired
the ashes
of misunderstood love
covered it, protected

the wheel of life
is in its spring
again

zen moment

.

if I touch you
do I touch myself?

.

who i am

.

I am God

sitting in waiting room

waiting for my coming

.

get undressed

.

think
if you could
read my mind

you would understand
what I want
to do
with you

drive my fingers
through your hair
kiss you
bite your lips
nipple your ear lobes
scrape your shoulders
gently with my nails
undress you
me
naked

so
think

would you
think
like me?

.